today I want to send you my last words and I want to thank all
of you for your kindness and love you allowed me to experience
during the last weeks of my all too short life which abruptly
ended in the late afternoon of April 9, 2008.
The day before I was still enjoying my life and I still remember
me playing with my best friend Khao and Doi. We had so much fun.
Later that day I was not hungry and only eat a little before
Thomas brought me to bed as usual. Somehow during the night
something happened with me and I really felt bad. During the
early morning hours when Thomas brought me out I did not walk
around as usual and I certainly was not hungry. So I was only
quiet and then I started to vomit.
Paporn then drove me to the hospital. But even with the medicine
my health steadily deteriorated and it started to hurt me a lot.
I then was admitted to the intensive care unit and they did
everything to stabilize my body functions. But again there was
not much improvement and things went from bad to worse. Only
some hours later I got seizures and became unconscious. I was
about to die and the veterinarian did everything she could to
resuscitate me but after the third attempt it was clear that I
had to go on my last journey.
As far as we know I had a massive acute renal failure with
damage to my bladder. Most likely this is an aftereffect of my
car accident which not only broke my spine but might have left
some damage to my internal organs as well. I finally succumbed
to this accident.
But I was not alone during my last day and hours because Paporn
and Thomas were there all the way to the end. They kissed me and
put a cross under my small body but even their love could not
change the course I was already on. And I did not go in anger
since the last weeks were beautiful and I made my experience
which I came for to this world. I was loved and I had great
friends.
Dear friends, please do not despair because I told you there is
always hope. Do not give up to help us poor souls out there
because we have no other place to go to. None of your efforts to
make my life beautiful was in vain and I really wanted to stay
longer. Now I am outside but I am still looking in.
